Playing on repeat.

OKAY. SATURDAY NIGHT OFFICIALLY SCREWED, I cooped myself at home. Dx
But I'm still waiting to see if I can get wasted tonight. D:
SAVE ME DDD':

On a velllyyy randooom note. I found,

Sexyback? LOL :p
Nice tan I've got on the flabby arms, yo.

HA HA HA. Period.

LEAVE ME ALONE!

I'm sooooooooooooooo damn pissed I could just punch the wall and throw and break anything. OMG, I just can't understand my parents sometimes. Off ALL days to piss me off, today I'm seriously in a realllllllllllly bad mood and thanks for venting yours on me. FUCK. Seriously, I HATE YOU, DAD. STOP PUSHING THE BLAMES ON ME WHEN MUM SCOLDS YOU. FUCK. GOD DAMN IT, I ABHOREEEEE YOU. And LEAVE ME ALONE! YOU WRECKED MY DAY SO BAD. I HATE YOU! )': I miss you so much.... Where'd you go, I need to talk to you...

Over it.

I. DEPRIVE.
One. Sleep
Two. Friends.
Three. Proper meals.
Four. Entertainment.
Five. Tranquility.

That. I. stone. and. typed. this. way.
I. whined.
I. cried.
I. cracked. under. pressure.
Went. insane.
And. started. laughing. to. myself.

Yup. I was driven to insanity due to the work load. I was so overloaded with projects and assignments. And and and and STRESS AND.. ARHHH. Submitted MR report yesterday.. BUT WE WERE 2HOURS LATE, and we couldn't even submit in peace after it was done 'cause Roche went home. He said to be submitted the next morning personally. Then twin and I went down early this morning to apologise for what had happened. We waited for an hour or so to only find he was on leave. ....... Thanks for making me wake up so early. ARG. SO GOD DAMN FRUSTRATED. I only slept 4 hours. I wanted to make up for my sleep debts and there it goes again. I'm so fucking tired.. like every part of me, mentally, physically and emotionally drained. Everyday I slogged for projects for the sake of my grades, and it wasn't worth my time at all. It wasn't fair. ): I had enough of the conflicts and arguements in this group, the too many different ways of getting work done and all this work load. Everyday I'm an angry girl. Then emotions taken its toll, I start to feel the guilt and just want to break down and cry. Who am I exactly? I don't wna retake any modules please. MR is a whole load of shit, I swear. How can we ever work in peaceeeeee?????? ARG. So what it's over, there's still the consequences to face. Forget it. And no, it still doesn't stop me from thinking about it. I. am. still. thinking. about. it.

I wasted my entire day today doing nothing. Watch twin, josh and hai finish up finance proj, which was so totally unproductive. I pray they finish it on time. Twin promised to finish the report on time. Omg, please dont screw up like ytd and everything would be okay, please please.. I can't afford to fail again. And my Psycho. Omg. Endangering 3 fucking modules. OMFG. SAVE ME.. I don't get why I'm so sleepy during psycho tutorials. I will doze off eventually when Mr Jeff's teaching the theories. And honestly speaking, he's not one bit boring. Trust me.. Even doodling the pages didn't help. I still fall asleep with the pencil still in my hand. It's terrible. I need help. Maybe it's just me. Maybe. Just. Kill. Me. PLEASE? Sigh. But activities today were fun. Especially the relaxing and tensing of muscles session. Hehe, really made me laughed after so long. Went to Henderson with twin to find our suppliers and restocked on the hp keychains that's all. Lol, twin went on date! b: Though it left you confused. ): No worries, there's better ones out there.

Finally met up with OLIVIA to chill and de-stress. After 3 damn long weeks. I missed you lovely. Sigh. Talked non-stop till 10pm. Sigh.. Everyone's leaving me soon in September, and off all time when my Birthday's approaching ): Jayjay's sailing to Perth and other continents for two months, Eerik's going into NS - solitary confinement, two Olivia's FLYING, one to China, another one with frequent flights to Bangkok. And wtf, I'm confined in Spore. Time keep still? NO? ): Ya, I'm still praying for a day when time rewinds. It's okay if tomorrow ended without me knowing. Hmmmm. ): Shit, I just rmbed I had some stuff to do. I procastinated. Think it's 11am in school to open up the store later. Yawns, finally more slp. AND BAND. MY red hot chillies, going to see you guys oh-so-soooon. DINNER. : D Good night.

Read my lips, because I'm so over it.

My bitchings and bitchness.

Just needed to get this off my chest, like really really badly. Not very sure how affected I am.. But sure is wrong to blog at this time when I have a paper 6 hours later. So damn f. wrong. Anyway, I just wanted to talk this out and seriously forget about it.. The matter was pretty much disrupting my studies for stupid accounts. Just needed to vent a little anger. Oh well, pretty soon will go away. :)

I cannot stand people who seriously have no guts. They blog about people whom they were unhappy, bitch like no f.ng business and in the end, DELETE THEIR POST. HA HA. Like seriously don't post it at all. I can be quite a bitch if something gets in the way. But, THERE IS A REASON TO IT. Projects are major irritants. But I never seem to have problems completing it with other groups. Exceptional this time, time management was so poor it scared the f. out of me. I'm pissed 'cause things are not done on time, meetings have always been cancelled and everything's last minute. Ya it's my fault that I didn't offer much help. Maybe it's just me.. I don't really take the initiative. But, neither was I told to do anything. If you assigned me at least something to do, I would really do it. Since when did I reject my job? So now, who can you blame? I got f-ed :) WOW. You know what to do and expect, don't come arguing with me who's right and wrong. But heck, I would give in anyway. So both of us were f-ed up, but she f-ed me up more. She wrote about me a deleted it off her blog. Ha. Well, it's a good thing I DIDN'T READ IT. I was told by people about it. Tsk tsk... So I don't know how fugly that post mentioned about me. Oh well, you deleted it! But how two faced can you be, fking bitch about me but still can act like nothing happened, well I thought nothing happened, just pissed with each other. You just don't know how many people dislike you. They seriously ABHORE YOU. Just that you don't know. Shrugs.. Aiya, no point making this crap a big-hoo-ha. YES, IT'S JUST A BLOG ENTRY! And it's so long fking over. I'll seriously just f. care everything and make it seems like nothing has happen. I don't know how much you hate me, but I don't wna bother. It's really a small matter with such little unhappiness. Just that... You're so not bold enough. And you don't really know what a person you can really be. Still I apologise for pissing the f out off you if you think so. Sorry for being a bitch yup. Yea, last week of school. Keep the mouths shut.

Ah, such a waste of time.. But something lifted off my chest. I bet I'll get funny anonymous tags. Tsk. Ya, scold all you want, I seriously f care. Good night. SIGH! Sleep deprivation. ALL THE BEST FOR THE LAST PAPER, Y'ALL RMT :) IT'S GNA BE A HELLAF A DAY LATER WITH MY GIRLS!! <3

Just pray that the last day of the month would be better.

I'm damn freakingly, extremely annoyed, annoyed, ANNOYED, frustrated, frustrated, FRUSTRATED!!! I don't comprehend stupid people, you know that? You know how freakingly annoying and stupid people can get?! AND OF ALL DAYS WHEN I'M PMS-ING, YOU BLOODY HELL DARE TO ANNOY ME?! LIKE GO THE HELL, LUH! MORON! Simply a moron, you understand?! ARG!!!!! NBCCB!?!?@#$#%@!#$$#^ FUCK.

Okay, that's the unsightly me you've have seen so far, you freaking morons have crossed the line this time! I SWEAR I'VE NEVER TYPED SUCH UGLY WORDS HERE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!OH MY GOD, I CAN FEEL MYSELF FUMING!!!!! AH!!!!!! I AM BEYOND BEYOND BEYOND MY PATIENCE AND I'VE BEEN HOLDING THIS FOR WAY TOO LONG!!!

Seriously, I don't understand why are there such stupid people around in my school who just wrecks my day when my day is already THAT BAD. One day, this person chided me off for nothing, NOTHING! I really done nothing nor have I seriously agitated you. What's with your freaking problem throwing tantrums on me?! Thanks a lot, luh! Another day, this person comes to me with an attitude because I didn't contribute much to the project. HELLOOOOOOO~ I did do my part at least, it's not like free loading or whatever fuck, I fucking don't care what the fuck you think! If you needed help, SAY SO LAR. Wtf, you come to me with an attitude and making me so guilty 'cause I didn't do much, like forcing me to apologise to you and then you can happily fuck me up, saying you've finished the project with blah blah blah, and it all uploaded, don't bother, don't say so much, don't ask so much, just check what you uploaded when I don't even know how to and when I asked for help, you seem stupidly useless. HA. HA. HA. FUCK YOU. >:( DON'T PISS ME OFF, YOU MORON. And on another day when I'm feeling so lousy and I just needed to talk to someone, SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP MOCKING ME AND JUST LISTEN TO ME! Eh, come on, I LISTEN TO PEOPLE. Is it so hard just to hear me speak for myself?! I feel very sorry for Kelly, 'cause I really pity her as she's the only one who really listens to me whine and really just sits there and listen!!!! Don't just walk out on me when I've something to say! It's extremely ANNOYING!

Halt anger.

I feel like a nobody, and I smile and laugh just to make things up. Just some facade of my fugly face. I don't know how to feel. Yadah yadah. E M O again. Arg, frustrating. Okay, back to who am I. Today's the last day of Jan. Please, be a better one, I BEG YOU.. Just let everything be at peace.. Feb. Lonely valentines', screwed up CNY, still miserable after CNY. :(

Bye.

Honestly, just smile and shut up, you'll do me FINE. Thanks.